So.

I weighed myself.
down to 125.
8 stone 13?
I feel huge though.
It's nice that the scales are telling me something different though I guess.
xx

I lost 3.4lbs after 34hrs. By not eating. I'm so weak now. Someone said I look pale. I lied ofcourse. I'm scared to gain weight. I love this feeling. Losing weight so fast is so fulfilling. I don't want this to end. I know I have to eat. But I don't want to. :( What can I do? If I eat I know I'll gain weight. And if I don't I might collapse or people might notice and stuff. I'm scared.

Help me please.

Wow

Managed to loose 4 pounds this week so far :D

Bleh.

Would anyone like to join in my fast tomorrow?
x

I feel so disgusting

I'm glad it's half term

I'm so sick of being around certain people everyday.
I sometimes feel like it's other people that makes this even harder than it is.
I've been feeling so tired and down lately.
I noticed some other people are too.
You can talk to me anytime, I'll listen if you'd like.
I weighed myself, 9 stone 1.
I've lost 2 pounds?
So that puts me at 127 pounds
which means I've lost 9 pounds, and I'm 7 pounds away from my goal weight.
Which is now being lowered, because I feel bigger than ever.
I've been getting bad stomach ache recently too?
I dunno.
We're having chinese take out for dinner tonight.
do not want.
But...i dunno. I'll try my hardest to get out it.
:/

stay wonderful, and happy, and know that we're here for each other.
xxx

i am so very tired.

i really am tired. in my body and in my mind. i am so so tired of keeping things inside me. i just want to say it all out to anyone who will listen. i am so hungry. and i am so tired of being hungry. but i need to be thin, and i'm a fat cow. i am so fed up, i want to cry all the time. i'm sick of pushing myself so hard at college and it's never enough, i never feel anything but lazy. i'm sick of living out of a suitcase and i'm sick of being ungrateful. i'm sick of not getting off my fucking fat backside and doing some exercise. i'm sick of being so weak. but most of all, and the reason i am still doing this, i'm sick of being fat. i just need one escape. i want to take drugs but i am too scared my school work will suffer and i cannot allow that. i haven't been drunk in so long, friday i will be shit faced. i need a release. i cannot cut any more, the scars are too much and i can't take any more self hatred. i.am.so.tired.

I definitely failed myself

Tomorrow is a new day... I feel gross and sad.

Does anyone have any recipes?

For lowwwwwww cal meals?
Like...that I could eat for dinner?
I absolutely cannot get out of eating dinner, and it's killing me.
I'm allowed to make my own, but I have to sit down and eat when my mum is home and we're having dinner
So does anyone have any recipes/websites that do.
As much I have this love/hate thing with food, I'm so mpicky about what I will eat.
Some things just make me sick to look at, nevermind have to actually put in my body.
Urgh.

Can I follow you all on tumblr? Post your linkys here? I'd love to follow you all.

Stay wonderful
xxx

so

I just weighed myself.
I've lost another lb.
So it's 7 in total.
It means though that I'm now 129lbs.
I'm so happy to be in the "20's"
But...I don't feel like it. I feel like a giant whale.

Fasting

1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24
It's not really a 24 hour thing because I've last ate at 9pm yesterday, buy I really like to do this thing with the numbers after.
It's day 10 on ABC.

ate around 450 calories today, just burnt off 475 at the gym, I LOVE CROSSTRAINERS

OMFG ! I want backbones like that !

It will never happen though i have no control i am a fat bitch !

Think thin

Hey guys! I'm new to this :D

So here goes:

I'm charmaine.

Height: 4'11 ( freaking short ):

HW:108 lbs.

CW:104 lbs

GW:89lbs

I'm kinda demoralised now ): cause i've been keeping my daily intake of cals below 1000 but yet my weight is not moving down ): ><>

okay so,

my parents have started to notice that im not eating alot, and it's getting real difficult to cover it up. They have gotten rid of the weighing scales and i want to cry, how am i ment to do this without knowing if im losing?! i feel so huge right now.

Hope everyone else is doing good, keep strong xxx

say hi to Lara

Hi, so I guess the only thing there is to say is that I'll be weighing in kilos because I don't live in a metric country.
Anyway, today was my 8th day on the ABC diet. And it sucked, mainly not because of food. My sucky day has my failed driving test to blame. SECOND. third one's a charm? we'll find out in two weeks.

So, I'm down 4 kilos at 65.1 today (morning was 65.5 but it went down at the afternoon). Hard to believe I was ever 69 but whatever, I'll try to shut up about it. I certainly don't talk about it to other people, it's completely horrifying considering I was always much MUCH smaller.

Anyways, I ate today (on a 400 calorie budget):
mandarine (53), oatmeal (250), apple (67) = 369


hopefully tomorrow I'll be somewhere around 64, and at 03/02/10, I'll be 56-57 'cause I'm seeing friends who last saw me at 50. ouch.

First Post (by me, anyway)

Fasting today, will probably fast tomorrow (even though it's my birthday). CW: 151, UGW: 130.

Planning on doing a two day fast (Monday & Tuesday)

Jut realized I have to get fucking serious about this.

Cause it's just getting ridiculous now.

Would anyone like to join? :)

Blogs back

Looked like somebody thought it would be fun to delete it.

This weeks been shitty

Its been full of food. And my friends and family have noticed. I've been eating like 7-900 cals a day! I can feel myself getting huge. Tomorrow imma have a 400 cal lunch and a fruit cup and come home and have a rice cake for dinner. That should put me at 520 total.

God, I need this to work out. I'm nine pounds away.

On the bright side everyone is saying how skiny I am. And also this really pretty girl said she wished she looked like me! Me! ugly, fatass me! It made my day.... I mean you've seen me, and I'm plain gross. She was probablly being nice but it made my day.

Work tomorrow so ill burn cals running around :)

Text me
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Pissed off much !?

Ok weighed myself today i am 98lbs i am 5 2" so that makes my Bmi around 17 .

I am so mad i wanted it too be so much less i am loosing my control I am binging and purging i have always had anorexia type 2 / purging anorexia but i never binge if i eat a little i will purge what is happening to me im becoming even more of a heffer :@

So

weighed myself again
down to 130 pounds.
9 stone 4?
59 kgs.
I like seeing it in all the different ways...

I dunno. It doesn't feel fast enough. I've been doing this 3 weeks, and lost 6 pounds.
Well I re-started this 3 weeks ago.
That's only 2 pounds a week...and it doesn't feel like anything. I feel like I can feel/see myself getting fatter everyday no matter what I do.
I don't know if I've started to slow down, or if I need to increase whatever I'm doing. At first I lost like....3 pounds in 3 days.
Any good tips of making my excercise routine more intense/calorie burning?
I hope you're all wonderful today
xxxx

for those of you with oral fixations/snacking cravings: emerald's 100 calorie almond packs are perfect. sometimes i just get tired of gum or i'm watching a movie with friends and everyone is snacking... blah blah blah. you can eat almonds veeeery slowly. theyre perfect!

for all you marmite lovers, today i discovered marmite rice cakes, they taste greaaat, and at 30.5 calories eachone, there so so so good to just snack on through out the day and even one is filling
im so happy i found these (L) hahaha

KAY.

IVE BEEN RUNNING LIKE EVERYDAY

AND IM THE SAME

WEIGHT

SINCE

LIKE

EVER.

/pissed

So I've not lost anything in 4 days
D:
but today is a new day!
Porridge 180
Salad with 1 slice of ham, and balsamic dressing 60
and then some juice 10
270!
so far though
dinner to come...

this week has been awful, so so so so so bad.
fat fat fat

101.0!

ONE MORE POUND

fat

yiiipeeeee

sw= 168lbs

today(lw)= 154lbs

Ahhh this is the lowest ive ever been ( which i can recall)
:)

Hope everyone is doing well

x

Tumblr?

I'm making a diet one, aside from my personal one.
Because I feel like that'll help me more :P Post your links and I'll follow you on my new one :]

yessss

I bought 25inch waist jeans today! They fit, a tiny bit loose, I'm so close to 24!

Today:
Bran Flakes (90) Sausage (250) Strawberries (50) Raisins (40) Non-fat sugar free Caramel Macchiato (102)

25 minutes cross trainer (200) aerobics (200)

AMAZING DAY.

http://looksempty.tumblr.com

charlotte x